So..I cried

I called my husband to tell him the news. I was on speaker and my son and mother-in-law were in the car so I didn't want to emote too much. My son is pretty in tune with people's feelings and sometimes he gets upset by it. I call my mom and talk to her. I'm rationalizing it at this point. Then I call my friend, and I cry a little. Not much, but I'm sad.

I realized that my life is not as it was. And it will be a huge life change for me and my family. Well, I could choose to be unhealthy, and get sicker... I have the opportunity to be healthier. Of course I am overweight, but it's not from a lack of trying.

My mom told me, "If anyone can do it, it's you".

A little back story:
Diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) at 25. It sometimes makes it difficult to become pregnant.
At 29 I miscarried the first time I got pregnant.
Was put on metaformin and waited three months before trying again. Got pregnant within two weeks of trying.
*Pregnancy diet 
For the first time ever, I find out my thyroid levels are not as they should be. Get sent to an endocrinologist. No medication needed, but put on thyroid diet.
*Thyroid diet (which entailed No caffeine, No Chocolate)
During the Spring of my pregnancy, I'm having issues with allergies and sinus stuff and I notice that it is difficult to sing. (I'm a music teacher). I see and ENT. I have vocal nodule and silent reflux. I'm put on a acid free diet.
*Reflux free diet
Then the day came and I failed my glucose test. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes.
* Gestational diabetes diet

So, I had to manage four different diet plans during pregnancy. I was able to monitor everything with diet. No need for medication.

After my son was born, he didn't latch.  So I pumped for a year so he could drink my milk. (I knew the health benefits). When my son was about 6 months old I noticed he had a lot of skin problems (eczema). I was reading that it could be food allergies. Well, the only thing he was consuming was my breast milk. So, I cut out dairy and gluten and most of the time nuts. I did this for 6 months until I stopped breast feeding. It turns out that he was allergic to dairy and nuts. It made a huge difference in his skin problems.

So, that's what my mom meant if anyone could do it. I have done it before.

The biggest difference is that this is not for a temporary amount of time. This change will be for the rest of my life. And it's a very restrictive diet. A healthy life style is not cheap in America. Everything is processed and filled with gluten/sugar. Not an easy task.

So....I cried a little.