So... I was sad.

Day two... and I am craving bread, carbs, bread and sweets. I'm totally full on what I'm eating and only twice a day. I am not calorie counting at all. I'm sure it's way less than what I normally eat.

I need to up my water intake though. I bought this awesome RTIC 64 oz. bottle. It is the best. I love drinking out of it and it says cold. I might not have ice, but it is cold. See it here. Way less than Yeti.

I will admit I have been drinking hot tea with honey to help my sweet cravings. I have considered allowing myself caffeine if I had a with drawl headache. So far so good on that and no need for caffeine.

Sunday meals:
Lunch-Chicken Thighs, baked sweet potatoes, spring mix salad with cucumbers avocado and balsamic dressing, apple and banana.
Chicken Thigh Recipe      

Dinner- Pork Shoulder, sweet potato fries and cabbage/carrot stir fry.
Pork Shoulder Recipe      Cabbage and Carrot Stir Fry Recipe (omitted the green onions)

Monday (today meal):
Lunch- Leftovers (Pork Shoulder, sweet potato fries and cabbage/carrot stir fry), banana and apple.

Dinner- Pork Shoulder, Brussel Spouts and Scallions and Fried Plantains.
Caramelized Brussels Sprouts w/ Lime Crispy Shallots Recipe     Fried Plantains Recipe

I was looking forward to making some hot tea before bed with some coconut milk. I looked at the ingredients to double check and I realized that I can not drink the milk that I bought. It had gum in it.

So..I was sad.

So..I cried

I called my husband to tell him the news. I was on speaker and my son and mother-in-law were in the car so I didn't want to emote too much. My son is pretty in tune with people's feelings and sometimes he gets upset by it. I call my mom and talk to her. I'm rationalizing it at this point. Then I call my friend, and I cry a little. Not much, but I'm sad.

I realized that my life is not as it was. And it will be a huge life change for me and my family. Well, I could choose to be unhealthy, and get sicker... I have the opportunity to be healthier. Of course I am overweight, but it's not from a lack of trying.

My mom told me, "If anyone can do it, it's you".

A little back story:
Diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) at 25. It sometimes makes it difficult to become pregnant.
At 29 I miscarried the first time I got pregnant.
Was put on metaformin and waited three months before trying again. Got pregnant within two weeks of trying.
*Pregnancy diet 
For the first time ever, I find out my thyroid levels are not as they should be. Get sent to an endocrinologist. No medication needed, but put on thyroid diet.
*Thyroid diet (which entailed No caffeine, No Chocolate)
During the Spring of my pregnancy, I'm having issues with allergies and sinus stuff and I notice that it is difficult to sing. (I'm a music teacher). I see and ENT. I have vocal nodule and silent reflux. I'm put on a acid free diet.
*Reflux free diet
Then the day came and I failed my glucose test. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes.
* Gestational diabetes diet

So, I had to manage four different diet plans during pregnancy. I was able to monitor everything with diet. No need for medication.

After my son was born, he didn't latch.  So I pumped for a year so he could drink my milk. (I knew the health benefits). When my son was about 6 months old I noticed he had a lot of skin problems (eczema). I was reading that it could be food allergies. Well, the only thing he was consuming was my breast milk. So, I cut out dairy and gluten and most of the time nuts. I did this for 6 months until I stopped breast feeding. It turns out that he was allergic to dairy and nuts. It made a huge difference in his skin problems.

So, that's what my mom meant if anyone could do it. I have done it before.

The biggest difference is that this is not for a temporary amount of time. This change will be for the rest of my life. And it's a very restrictive diet. A healthy life style is not cheap in America. Everything is processed and filled with gluten/sugar. Not an easy task.

So....I cried a little.

So I went to the doctor

So, I went to the doctor... he said,  "Well there is a lot going on with you. It's a good thing or bad thing depending on how you look at it." I said, "It's good because now I know what I have to deal with." He agreed.

We went over my blood work and it was all a little much to all take in. First off I'm Vitamin D deficient. (Okay.)
Low on B12. (Okay.)
My body thinks it's staving. (What?) So basically everything I eat, it tries to conserve it into fat. (Oh...that's why I can't lose weight.) But wait..there's more.
I found out I have Grave's disease. He suspected that I had hypothyroidism, but alas no. I'm an overweight person with hyperthyroidism. (Why couldn't I be thin and like normal people with this?) He assures me that this is not my fault. Most doctors do that apparently; blame the patient. He pointed to my blood work and said, this proves it not your fault. That made me feel a little better.
Sex hormone is way off too, but didn't go much into that yet. (It could be related to my thyroid.)

Positives to blood work:
Glucose - Good
Cortisol- Good
Cholesterol- Good
Do not have sticky blood- Good
Liver- Good

So where do I do from here? Now what?

• Supplements (if I choose to take them) 
• Thyroid medicine
• Autoimmune Paleo Diet (should help with 60%-70% of problem)
• Fasting diet to help trick my metabolism
• Go back to doctor in 10 weeks